Sacing out

Ok daa.. Sac out.. This is gonna be little philosophical (and full of definitions for those who will not understand properly, Lets start with philosophy- philosophy is late knowledge)
The thing is today I realised that I am stupid. Now please don't say that what's new, everybody knows it. But there is significant difference in knowing and realising. Today I realised that I am stupid. Did I tell you, what stupid is? OK, stupid is one who repeats the mistakes and expects the different results :(
I refuse to comment about this stupidity (God!!! Please don't confuse this with Saturday stupidity), cause it has got to do with my acads, and my recent resolution does not permit me to discuss acads on this blog :)
My problem is I am not able to answer few questions. Every question has got an answer. If you are not getting any answer then you are not asking the right question. Questions like, why it is happening to me, why I am feeling so, why I am doing so, am I gonna do like this only, what is gonna happen... does not have any answers. The more I am thinking (worrying will be right word)about it, more I am getting frustrated. Only thing which I learnt is, simply worrying will not help any further. So what is this right question, I don't know. I don't care either.
From this moment I am not going care about what is happening around me, what people are thinking about me. Total sac out. I don't give a damn to any shit thing in this world anymore.
Let the whole world go to the hell, I am gonna lead my life the way I want to. I have no remorse for the things I did. I am happy the way I am leading my life.