Keep the faith

I have heard this number of mai kaa laal jai kishan (I mean Michael Jackson) for some million times. But never understood what he is trying to say. Its only after my everything s... And everybody f... mood, thanks to ToC, I understood it fully. I quickly googled and found out lyrics. And I simply can't stop myself listen it again and again.

Don't you wanna give yourself a chance? Surrender your heart.. Understand the power of believing... Climbing highest mountain.. Swimming the deepest sea.. And all that you need is will to want it and faith in yourself.

Don't let nobody take you down.. Is not it precisely what the first principle is.

What an advice .. It's just matter of time, before your confidence will win out. But till that day you have to keep the faith. Did not I realize long back that few problems have only one solution and that is time. How I realized that I can't answer these questions cause it's just not the right time to ask .

Just keep your eyes on the prize and your feet flat on the ground - isn't it what the dog is supposed to do.

Better stand up and act like you wanna do right. Don't play the fool for the rest of your life.Lift up your mind before your mind gets blown.Some things in life you best just leave them alone. Go for what you want. Don't let it get in your way.You can make it happen But ya got to keep the Faith.

Everything s**ks everybody f**ks

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Do you ever felt that, nothing is going right. Everything sux. Everybody fux. Every damn thing freaks you out or feel like go n rip somebody's head off or want to get out of this hell.

I have no clue how to deal with this situation. Specially when you don't want to do something but you simply cant guss it. And more you try to fight, it becomes worse. These god damn compres !!! I hate them.

Sometimes I feel like running away from this place. (Don't worry! it's me.. kapil :D will not give up so soon but still, comprees sux :(( ) Thanx to Anto. I remember what he said. I have to put efforts at least to survive through this situation. Cause not surviving is simply not an option. Yo man! Everybody has to pass through shit. And now its this dog's day. Everybody's survived through. And I will too :)

Losing my grip

I donno what to say :(
I never wanted to crap all this things here. But I am helpless. Because what is bothering me is me myself. Its me versus me.
I never wanted to do the things I am doing, And not doing the things which I always wanted to. I am so confused.

I just wanna do one damn thing. Learn from my own mistakes. And for the heavens sake not to repeat them again and again.

I am not gonna give a shit to anything. I don't wanna lose my grip :(

I am in middle of my compres and my mind is in deep shit. I am hardly studying. I have no idea what is gonna happen. May be, it had become my habit now. I donno what to do. But I badly want to get the hell out of it. I never thought something will piss me off to that extend I will start hating myself.

How can I be that sick. How can I fall for all pity things. This is the reason why I ruined my high school. This is the reason why I did not get into my dream college. And this is the reason why I have screwed my acads.

But how can do this to my CDCs. Kaps, enough .. Forget it. Everything has its own time. And this is not right time to do all these things. And It's not too late. Give up before it blow off your mind.

You can do this. Only thing you have to do is just forget whatever happened. And don't worry. Keep the faith... It's matter of time. We will do it. We will make it happen.

Follow the first principle .

Don't let anything affect your inner poise, no matter what happens. Don't let anything make you feel miserable. Remember no matter what happens, you should not suffer.

The Dog

This is story of a dog. A long time a ago, there lived a dog. Not so good. And not bad either. It is about that time when it was very young and innocent. Loved to live in a small village. But soon the whole family shifted to the town. The dog enjoyed its stay with friend. It was lucky so he got lots of freedom. It used to roam around. Loved to be alone and spent most of the time in day dreaming.
It found out that only dreaming and doing nothing would not help it achieve them at all. This became its greatest strength, it never lost the touch with the reality. It had its head up high in the sky and legs right on the ground. This small dog turned into street dog. Street dog Never quit the fight even if all the odds were against it and the whole world hated it. Everyday was new. A new fight. And at the end of the day, those who hated it, loved it for the audacity it showed.

Aint it looking everything cool? It's not story if everything goes fine and there is no twist.

Now our dog is grown up. It's just grown old but not grown wise. Things are changed now. It's no more street dog. Now it has become a stray dog. It's attracted by the luxury. Bread is never faught and achieved but received in alms. The day starts in search of breads moving from one house to other, waiting outside gate , moving its tail and hoping that somebody will come out and take pity on it and give the food.

The dog still dreams .. But the street dog inside is missing..

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